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mrngstr

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filloryfanatic

That would be ideal, but not necessarily likely. Since it doesn't seem to have a rhyme or reason about why some people come and go here. But that's okay. I want to help see if we can get answers to these things, and give people the chance to go home if they want, even if it doesn't end up long term mean I get to live.

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mrngstr

So you've come to terms with your death?

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filloryfanatic

I've technically lived and died a lot, and I had one really great lifetime. I had a wife, a husband, a child, grandchildren, an entire timeline that was good. If I have to die young again, I still got more than a lot of people did.

That being said, I'm not sure anyone can ever come to terms with their death. I want to keep living, but I did it to save people, and I'll do it again.

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mrngstr

How have you lived multiple lives?

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filloryfanatic

Time loops. There was this magician named Jane, her brother became a psychopathic monster, she got a time turner of sorts that she used to try to stop him. She would change little things about the timeline and hope that this time we could beat him, and if not, she'd restart the timeline and do something else. We were the fortieth timeline and the last one, and luckily the one that actually did manage to stop him. I haven't really lived as all those Quentins, but they all died. One of them actually became a murdering psychopath himself, so that's just great, really makes a person rethink their personal demons.

From:

mrngstr

If I had a head, it would hurt.

But you don't seem so bad.

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filloryfanatic

That Quentin lost his soul (or the equivalent). When that happens, it's near impossible to get it back, and it removes all remorse and empathy. But it still doesn't excuse killing a whole lot of people, so. And yeah, it does hurt my head too, but I lived it, so at this point I just shrug. That's why all of this isn't really that mind-crushing, the multiverse already existed for me, this is an extension of it.

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mrngstr

I still find the concept of a soul to be a very vague one. A lot of people said that when AI started to gain their own sense of identity, that we had acquired souls. I'm not sure it works that way.

But if it does, try not to lose yours again? I've got enough on my plate.

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filloryfanatic

Yeah honestly I always thought of souls as vague too, until I went into the magic world and saw that there is literally a version of one, called a shade. But it takes someone burning out on magic to really cause that to happen, and I don't have any magic here, so we're all good.

I really miss magic.

From:

mrngstr

The blue glow and emotion sharing isn't enough for you?

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filloryfanatic

God no I avoid the emotional sharing as much as possible. I'm kind of like an ugly heap of issues in my brain and in my emotions, I don't want anyone to have to deal with that. I haven't figured out my powers yet. Magic is a part of me, it's what makes me feel centered and like myself. It's not easy being without it again.

From:

mrngstr

Everyone has something. You'll figure it out, even if it's not the same as what you had before.

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filloryfanatic

I'm sure I will, it's not anything I've thought of yet, because I have enough focus to probably have set off elemental abilities or flight by now??? Probably. My mastery is in repairing objects which is kind of stupid but I don't think it's the same.